Sometimes we have to channel the time and energy we invest in others into ourselves.
I would never go as far as labelling myself the bestest friend in the world, but I’m a damned good one and loyal too. In recent moons, I’ve come to realise that the emotional energy and support I’ve shown to others isn’t reciprocated back to me. At times, it hurts but I get it… Everybody likes to look out for No 1 these days, and they have every right to. However, whenever I put myself first; invest in the things that make me happy, I’m accused of falling out with people, being selfish, a bitch.
Just because you don’t respect or give a damn about me, don’t expect me not to love and respect myself.
There’s no crime in being different, weird, introvert/extrovert, whatever, just as long as you’re hurting nobody else. Stay true to yourself and be YOU.
Commentary ‘I’m Different’ is an extract from what turned out to be a rather long song lyric/poem which I started almost 15 years ago and never completed. From personal experience, I know how it feels to not be “the norm”. Just because I have different interests from my social peers, I don’t follow trends and it takes me a little longer to follow a conversation than a normal hearing person, it shouldn’t exclude me from being a friend or a family member, right? I spent so many years (and still do occasionally) shutting myself away and internally hating myself for not being how others wanted me to be and the fear of rejection. No matter how right you are, you’re always perceived as wrong. Then BOOM, something nasty hits the fan of those that judge and ostracise you and you say to yourself “You know what? It’s good to be different”.
I must credit the Raphael Saadiq and T-Boz collaboration, ‘Different Times‘, Instant Vintage 2002 as an inspiration for this piece too. Unable to hear the lyrics clearly, because of my hearing, I made up my own lyrics to the music and the melody and just freestyled my thoughts. A truly beautiful song in its own right, I just put my 3rd Ear spin on it. 3EG
As #MentalHealthAwarenessWeek comes to a close, 3rd Ear Wordz shares this quote to uplift those who are struggling alone with depression and are put down by those around them.
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Welcome to the 3rd Ear Dictionary. The language may not translate well in the ‘real’ world but is essential in the 3rd Ear World. First official entry is Broke Boaster.
A lyric about a failed relationship from the 3rd Ear Wordz vault.
“I’ve had enough. I’m sick and tired of you taking me for granted.
Now I’m toughening up, cutting the ties that keep us banded.
Guys like you are too selfish, caught up in your own game.
Always promising changes, yet things remain the same.
Well I’ve tried, given you all that I could.
You fail to recognise how I feel.
And telling me you’re the one who’s been misunderstood.
You just don’t know when you’ve got something good.
So believe me cause this time it’s true.
I’m giving up on you.
Lost count of the times I had your back.
Whilst you were cheating behind mine.
Gave up on my dreams only for you to treat me so blatantly unkind
Oh why! Tell me one time that I ever did you wrong?
I’ve been such a fool to put up with you so long.
You used to love me, hold me, be there for me baby.
Now you walk over me, crush my pride and say that you care for me baby.
Well no more. I’m tired of being your fool.
Believe me boy, I’m giving up on you.
Now my eyes are open and I can see through the haze.
When I see you on the street, I’ll be looking the other way.
Cause I don’t want to see the tears in your eyes,
Or hear about how you’re hurting inside.
Because I know its all lies.
How many times do you want to throw your love on me?
Then when I don’t live up to your expectations, take it back from me.
I’m worth more than the drama you put me through.
Believe me boy, I’m giving up on you.”
Copyright D Woolcock for 3rd Ear Wordz