Sometimes we have to channel the time and energy we invest in others into ourselves.
I would never go as far as labelling myself the bestest friend in the world, but I’m a damned good one and loyal too. In recent moons, I’ve come to realise that the emotional energy and support I’ve shown to others isn’t reciprocated back to me. At times, it hurts but I get it… Everybody likes to look out for No 1 these days, and they have every right to. However, whenever I put myself first; invest in the things that make me happy, I’m accused of falling out with people, being selfish, a bitch.
Just because you don’t respect or give a damn about me, don’t expect me not to love and respect myself.
There’s no crime in being different, weird, introvert/extrovert, whatever, just as long as you’re hurting nobody else. Stay true to yourself and be YOU.
Commentary ‘I’m Different’ is an extract from what turned out to be a rather long song lyric/poem which I started almost 15 years ago and never completed. From personal experience, I know how it feels to not be “the norm”. Just because I have different interests from my social peers, I don’t follow trends and it takes me a little longer to follow a conversation than a normal hearing person, it shouldn’t exclude me from being a friend or a family member, right? I spent so many years (and still do occasionally) shutting myself away and internally hating myself for not being how others wanted me to be and the fear of rejection. No matter how right you are, you’re always perceived as wrong. Then BOOM, something nasty hits the fan of those that judge and ostracise you and you say to yourself “You know what? It’s good to be different”.
I must credit the Raphael Saadiq and T-Boz collaboration, ‘Different Times‘, Instant Vintage 2002 as an inspiration for this piece too. Unable to hear the lyrics clearly, because of my hearing, I made up my own lyrics to the music and the melody and just freestyled my thoughts. A truly beautiful song in its own right, I just put my 3rd Ear spin on it. 3EG