This self-loathing lyric was written at a bad period in my life. Even though you’re free, have you ever felt trapped, not only in love, but in friendships or by hurtful family members? You can see all the wrongs, but to avoid further drama, you don’t say nothing. You stop standing up for yourself and let the hurt roll whilst you’re hurting badly inside.
Must’ve been born with pussy written on my forehead
My only explanation for believing in all the things you said
Thought you loved me but I’m just a fool
Cuz I’m stupid me
I’ve let you see me cry 2 many a time
Let you play silly games with my mind
Why I let you do this I just don’t know
The doors wide open but I don’t wanna go
Cuz I’m stupid me
CHORUS: You put me down, you mess around
Spread the word all over town
“That girls stupid”
Break my heart and make me cry
Tell me anything cuz I’ll believe your lies
Cuz I’m stupid. Stupid motherfuckin me
Rejections something I’m kind of getting used too
Cuz if i’m waiting 4 affection, I ain’t getting it from you
You say you love me when you run out of honey
My emotions you walk all over. Ha Ha so funny!
Cuz i’m stupid me (CHORUS)
Why do I let you hurt me?
Why do I let you make me cry?
I know it’s wrong but I let you carry on
Why, oh why! Oh why! Cuz i’m stupid me
Copyright Lady Syxess (Lady 6X) 2008
Originally published on the now defunct Triond website
A relationship broken down. The woman has given it her all but isn’t getting much of a response from her man. Does she fight for love or should she walk away from it? What is she supposed to do?
You know how I feel for you
So why d’ya keep trying to make me prove
What’s perfectly clear
Pushing me away, double siding me
Is only gonna make me disappear
There’s only so much I can take
Damn it! I got feelings too
Wanna share my dreams with you
But you’re making it so hard for me
So hard for me
So what am I supposed to do?
It’s fair to say, I’ve gotta share the blame
Trying to steer you from the reality and pain
Tried to paint a perfect picture fantasy
Even though we were suffering in the misery
But please, you must always remember
Right or wrong I’ve always been there for ya
From January through to December
Stood there strong by your side
Trying to guide you through life
Now you’re pushing me, fighting me
Double siding me
After all that we’ve been through
Be honest with yourself
You know I’d never do that to you
So tell me what am I supposed to do?
I don’t wanna see you in misery
I don’t wanna see you in pain
But if it means a replay of all the hell we’ve been through
Then I don’t wanna see you again
You see trust means a lot to me
And you’ve broken mine too many times
Then you say you realise
And tell me you wanna give our relationship another try
But how do I know that you’re not just spinning another lie
I have feelings for you and always will do
But when you’re fighting me, double siding me. Tell me
What am I supposed to do?
*Copyright Lady Syxess 2007
* This lyric was published under Lady Syxess (my other alias) and published on the now defunct Triond website. All rights reserved.